It’s there. It’s always there. The nagging feeling that I don’t belong, that my words mean nothing, that my feelings are only good for a joke.
I’m there. I’m always there. Call me and I will come in an instant. I will let you tear my soul apart for a moment of delusional happiness. I will cuddle into your warm embrace and listen to your gentle words while you are preparing to break me into pieces. You are like poison to me. A poison I cannot resist.
You are… Where are you? Your words were drowned in the sound of train wheels gliding on the rails. Your warmth was taken away by the wind. You left me empty and longing for the next moment of sweet torture to fill the void in my heart.
Everything changes. I change. You change. Only one thing stays constant – your words imprinted on my mind.